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27 May 2008 @ 09:49 pm
The song stupid girls by p!ink sort of describes how I see people. I think in this song, she is saying that most girls are material girls and that they will do anything to be waded on by boys and to get fame. She is saying where are the girls who are smart and want to make a difference in the world? That’s what I’m wondering. I see girls who are trying to be something that doesn’t fit them. I see intelligent people who have much potential to do more than what they try to be. In the song she also talks about how she will be skinny, maybe if she’s skinny then they boys will notice her. And that maybe if she flips her blond hair the boys will notice. “Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back”
She is trying to say that she wants to see girls be more intelligent and have high goals like being the president, not girls who want to be in a 50 cent music video. “What happened to the dreams of a girl president. She's dancing in the video next to 50 Cent” She is saying those girls are stupid and wonders what happened to the girls who want to be more that that. It doesn’t really connect to anything in my life but I also wonder what happened to girls who strive for survival and strive for more than being material girls.


In the song Fly by Hilary duff, she talks about how everything can change in a moment.“ In a moment, everything can change, Feel the wind on your shoulder, For a minute, all the world can wait, Let go of your yesterday.” I thought it was really nice to hear the words let go of your yesterday. If I actually had the ability to let go of my yesterday then my life would be so relaxing. “All your worries, leave them somewhere else, Find a dream you can follow, Reach for something, when there's nothing left, And the world's feeling hollow.” As easy as you can read those words, doing is much harder. But I feel like if I could do that then I would be so much happier than I am right now. “Fly Open up the part of you that wants to hide away You can shine, Forget about the reasons why you can't in life, And start to try, cause it's your time, Time to fly.” I think this is saying even though your life isn’t right at the moment, you have to shine and let it go by and if you open your heart then you can always find a way. “And when you're down and feel alone, Just want to run away, Trust yourself and don't give up, You know you better than anyone else, In a moment, everything can change, Feel the wind on your shoulder, For a minute, all the world can wait, Let go of yesterday” She’s saying that if your down, just trust what around you and you never know because in one moment, everything can change in just a moment and everything could be better again. “Open up the part of you that wants to hide away You can shine, Forget about the reasons why you can't in life, And start to try, Fly Forget about the reasons why you can't in life, And start to try, cause it's your time, Time to fly.” She’s saying that even though you may want to hide, you just have to shine and FLY and it’ll be ok. Except I don’t think it works. These words just sound soothing to me when I’m having a bad day.

In the song Stranger by Hilary Duff, she talks about someone whos a stranger. “There's no kindness in your eyes The way you look at me, it's just not right I can tell whats going on this time . Theres a stranger in my life” I feel like that’s what I notice in some people. I see kindness and I enjoy their company, but at the same time I don’t understand them and their actions. They seem like strangers. As if they change drastically. “Theres no kindness in your eyes .The way you look at me, it's just not right I can tell whats going on this time
Theres a stranger in my life .You're not the person that I once knew .Are you scared to let 'em know it's you? .If they could only see you like I do .Then they would see a stranger too” I feel the same way about some people. They act with affection and then later they ignore you and leave you hanging. It seems scary and you wonder what happened to the person that I once knew? And it makes me wonder why they act this way, and they seem like strangers to me. Which seems really sad because getting too attached can get you no where if they are strangers to you at the end.
 
 
10 May 2008 @ 12:52 pm
Autobiography:
likes food, please feed me, yes?

AD: 25 F, seeking 26 yr. seXy M, <3 food. as long your not mentally neurotic, COME AND GET ME BITCHEs. (not real lol)
 
 
03 May 2008 @ 08:29 pm
Dear freshman Samara,
My advice to you is to actually learn Bio. Don’t ust memorize the vocab or anything because the end, it means nothing to you and you would have sat in Bio class for a year without gaining any knowledge. Understanding the actual concept of your classes, not just bio, will help you get through next year with out any problems because by then you will have skills to master any class..almost.
And get a job!!! the sooner you get a job, the sooner you can buy your own stuff without relying on your parents! and you can then go to china by buying your own ticket. and go on massive shopping sprees!!
Another thing is don't watch too many dramas. I can’t really say much about this because i still do, but watching like 12 episodes in one day is really bad. don't watch drama after drama, watch them moderately. Like watch one and stop and watch and stop. if you watch them continuously like you probably are doing right now, you will feel hopeless and depressed.
Try to get out more! hang out with friends! make new friends! that’s always fun. I know you do hang out once in a while and have fun, but you’ve got to do it more often, your becoming a hermit!!! But at least you get pretty good grades.
And try giving Reethie (cat) more attention. No one gives her attention except you, but she needs more. treat her like you treat Nandi( other cat) because before you know it, she will be gone in a heart beat.
And in school, don't get good grades to please your parents, get good grades for your own benefit and actually learn something, because at the end that’s what really counts!!
Since you have so much time on your hands, take a SAT class, or go to community college and learn something!! It will benefit you greatly, because right now im really too busy for anything.
And in the summer time when you see your brother, be nicer to him and teach him english. He works hard and he tries to do what he can.
But, your a good kid, be your self and keep it up!
 
 
27 April 2008 @ 03:33 pm
I’m so glad mr.ross is giving us a easy blog, one where I don’t have to think much. I’m sooooooo hungry. I made some Korean food and it was really spicy, and I was full so I put it in the fridge for later, but then my mother just had to throw it away .my choices are either make more or don’t eat at all. Hmmmmmm I think I’m going to make more. But currently there are people in my house who are setting up filming stuff. they are filming children who are adopted from china and they liked us the most…this is like the third time they are filming us. And one of the lady directed the movie the whale rider. so that’s sort of like second hand fame. But im soooooo hungry. Omg I eat way too much. I sent like 30 dollars on food this week. Ten for dinner the day before yesterday and 20 yesterday, I paid for a friend.


Basically nothing is going on in my life. Except im going to china this summer! I’m so excited. I have to leave a week earlier though because my sister is volunteering at some place and they are going to places so she has to follow their schedule and I don’t want to travel alone so im just going to go with her. Which slightly sucks because that means I have to take finals a week earlier. But that’s ok because while I’m in china eating yummy Chinese food, you guys will be stressing over finals…MUAHAHAHAHAHAHa. Friday I was going to do some hw, but I never got t it, and Saturday was my sisters birthday and she had this LAME party. She’s a freshman and so there were like 20 other freshmen there. So I didn’t do any hw sat. either. So I dedicated today for hw. I have 10 hours to do it. Fun right?


I swear, I have bugs in my house, I’ve been bitten EVERYWHERE. omgomg I’m so itchy. I feel like I’m in Maine. Or china. Bugs love me. Life is so good. I’m doing well in school and I get to go to china. And I recently went shopping. But dude I hate bugs with all my might. Anyways after this blog im gona have to do two nights of math hw because I skipped a night, then do some hard core chemistry, and some history. Then its all over. but right now I’m cooking more of that Korean spicy food so brb. Ok so now I’m sitting at my computer face booking and writing this blog and eating yummy spicy food. I love spicy foood soo much. my mother says iv probably burned out my taste buds, but she is wrong.


So basically I spent yesterday eating and ating some more and chill axing with gi youn Jacob and Ryan. fun fun. Oh man I’m sooo tan .I want to get whiter. I’m way too tan. But my sister is tanner than me. She’s at the point of black. she runs track so that’s why. I cant wait for next year, this year I hav 7 classes, but next I’m just going to have 6 next year.


Dam, ten paragraphs is a lot. hmmmm. Well im really thirsty so im going to get some ice tea. I really want to watch some Korean dramas but I don’t have time, hw is taking over my life. I really want to just sleep and snuggle with my kitty. I wonder how different china is from Taiwan. Hmmmmmmmmmmm. I wana go to Korea so bad. And then Japan. Im going on a senior trip with my friends and we’re going to china and korea. it’ll be soo fun.


So, I have 4 paragraphs….6 to go! Ughhh. I had such a good dream today, but then I woke up for no reason. And I went back to bed. And then got up and ate something. Omg coffee ice cream sounds sooo good right now. My mom bought the movie juno and watched it with me and it was really good, even on the second time. I saw it in the theaters. Well its 3 pm. I have like 7 hours to do my hw. It will probably take me and hour and a half to do my math because I wasn’t paying attention in class. Then an hour to finish this in class history quiz, well, probably not an hr, im rounding up. And thank god she let us take that quiz home. Then I have some chemistry hw, which would take me two hours because I need help in it. Which comes out to be like four hours of hw to go.


So far, im half way done with this blog. This weather is really nice. I love sunny weather. I hate the rain. Rain is cold and wet and you cant play. But when its sunny it feels nice and you can go out and its not depressing. But once in a while its nice to be in the warm bed either reading or on a laptop( most likely a laptop) on a rainy day. I hop my paragraphs aren’t too short. Omg Hannah Montana is sooooooo annoying. I really need some new music. I always get new music and listen to it a lot because I like it so much but then a week later I get sick of it and never use my ipod again. Which sucks. I really need a job too. I’ve been so busy. Last year I would come home and do hw, which wasn’t really much, then I would just stay home and watch dramas. Those were the good days.


But this year, I’ve been soo busy. I don’t even know why. Well, I have more hw this year. And I made new friends so I started hanging out with them. Which is fun. I really need to get my permit. I totally have the book. I just haven’t read it yet. My goal is to be driving legally by senior year. Hopefully that will happen. I’m very lazy that’s why I don’t even have my permit. I could have had my permit like a half a year ago. But eh. Oh well. I have 2 years to achieve my goal.


I feel really full right now. which is good. Not that you really care. But what really sucks is I hae to pay for my own ticket to china. Which is like 1000 dollars. And I have to pay half before I go. Currently have 200 in the bank and like 70 in my wallet. And I have a job so it’ll be ok. but I want a new job. My current job is hard and it sucks. Oh man I was going to type something but I lost my thought. I really want to see prom night. Saw the eye with Jessica alba. HORRIBLE MOVIE. They made fun of Asians. They had this little Asian kid who’s a ghost saying have you seen my report card, have you seen my report card, my dads going to kill me. And then he jumps. don’t ever see that movie, sooo horrible.


I hate how fake people act. This person I know she tries to be so friendly and she tries to socialize. I mean I guess it’s a good thing. But it looks so fake to me . Eh well, wow this is my last paragraph. I need to get my hair straightened again. It costs like 200 dollars here to last for a year, but in china its like 20. But I don’t even have to pay for it because my brother will. My family in china try to spoil me because I see them every other year. And my brothers going to be especially nice because I bought him a ipod. But I don’t want anything from them, just food. All they have to do is feed me and its all good.
 
 
23 March 2008 @ 11:39 pm
I haven’t been watching any tv lately, but I have this one particular show that’s my all time favorite. Although there are only 8 seasons and I’ve basically watched them all, I still love CHARMED. It is about three witches who receive their powers on this one special midnight. Piper’s power is freezing time, Phoebe’s power is seeing the future, and Prue’s power is moving things with her mind. All three girls work together and kick ass. In this show, not only is it action and really awesome super natural powers, but a lot of comedy. They use sarcasm in a lot of their dialogue. Every time I watch it, I’m mesmerized by the super powers that I wish I had, and I laugh and enjoy it. The reason why I like that show so much is because of the action and comedy and drama created all together.

In their daily lives, they try to handle their jobs with daily demon killing and love lives. Prue who is the oldest one, dies by this evil demon thing, so they find another half sister, Page. Her power is orbing (since she is half white lighter and white lighters can heal people and orb) and she can move things with her mind since she is also half witch.(orbing is going anywhere you want in just a flash) Her power is the best. The sisters are once again charmed when they unite and kick ass. Piper owns a club, which a lot of warlocks and demons often crash and try to kill them. Everyone wants to kill the witches so they can be more powerful and rule the world. The witched have charisma and work together to fight evil!! That sounded fruity…but it’s a great show. In all the eps, Phoebe sees the future and tell her sisters, Piper freezes the bad guy, and Pure/Page uses their noggin to save the day. Sometimes they throw in a twist where Phoebe gets another premonition and everything changes..or when they make the good guy into the bad guy and vise versa. What annoyed me was when Piper was having a lot of issues with her relationship with Leo, her husband who is an angle. She was always complaining about how he was never around to be with her two sons and the rest of the family. Piper’s two sons grow to be the most power witches in the whole world. They could basically rule the world if they wanted to, well one of them turned evil and tried to but the other brother went back in time to save the evil brother into turning evil because he wasn’t born evil, just influenced as a child by evil this evil elder. And everything turns out to be ok though. The coolest part about Piper’s sons is that they got powers even before they were born. If piper was in danger and pregnant with a child, the unborn child could give off a force field. I wish I could do that..
 
 
16 March 2008 @ 06:21 pm
On the day of the history test, I decided to ditch. I wasn’t prepared and could make up for it later any ways. I called up my friend who has a car and told him to go, just go. I didn’t care where he was taking me, I just wanted to get away. Finally, and half an hour later, we arrived in san Francisco, chinatown. I asked him what we were doing there and he said he was meeting up with some friends. I waited in the car, while he walked up with 5 other people. Four were guys and one was a girl. I didn’t know them, but that didn’t matter. We drove around and ate junk food and we didn’t do much, just chilled. But then 20 minutes later, he drove us to golden gate park. I asked why we were here, it seemed sort of random. He said that he was going to teach me how to drive a stick. I was hesitated, me?Driving? I’ve never driven before...So got up to the front, excited, and asked what to do. He told me to put my seat belt on, step on the clutch, hold it while shifting gears, and slowly let go of the clutch and step on the gas very gently. I did as he told, except I let go of the clutch too soon and stalled the car, like 10 times. But by the 11th time, I was pretty good. Then we drove over to some random burrito truck and got some lunch. It was so yummy, mostly because of not having to take the test and finally being “free” for one day. I didn’t want to think about what I would miss in school and all the work I would have to make up. After the driving lesson, he drove us to marine world! It was a perfect day to get on those water rides, since it was 98 degrees. We arrived there and immediately went on the log ride, we were soaked by the time it was over. We also went to see the 3D sponge bob show, which was really fun. By the time we went on all the water rides, it was time to go home. We drove back to albany high school and I called up my mother to pick me up. It was 6:30 and I told her I had a field trip that ended around that time. When I got home, there was a phone call informing us that I was not in school, I just said they made an mistake. My parents believed me and I was good to go.
 
 
Current Mood: crappy
 
 
08 March 2008 @ 08:52 pm
My favorite art piece is the night and day one. I liked how it was day in the sky and background but dark down on the house and down at the lake/pond. I like the contrast, how its so dark you can see the reflections of the house and lamp. I like how the clouds are white with a really blue sky. I wonder what it looks like behind the house. If the sky was bright and dark on land, then at what point do light and darkness meet? Does the sky’s color get separated by a line, or does it slowly turn into light? Does the sky slowly turn black when it hits land or is it just divided by a line? Except I think it should be night above and day below. If I was day below then children could play all day long and people wouldn’t be so paranoid during the day. Or I just personally like day better than night.
I think the day background with the blue clouds represent happiness, openness, and something refreshing, like cool cold air in the morning. The day reminds of a fresh start, a ne beginning. The day part makes me feel happy and cheerful. The night is dark and beautiful and barley see-able except for the bright lamp. Maybe the artist like night more than day, choosing night to be on land.
I like this art piece because I like day time more than I like night, so having both at the same time would be really cool. I don’t like night as much as I like day because at night I feel rushed and sleepy and gloomy. But when it’s bright daylight with sunshine, I feel energized and happy and full of life.
I think the two windows lit means that theirs life in that house and that it’s not just some empty abandoned house. I think the lamp is like a home-ie touch. I don’t know much about art and what’s considered art. Art has always seemed weird. Someone could just throw some dirt on a plate and call it art, so what really is art? I think the day/night is art because it’s not random stuff put together. But this piece of art is different, good different. If I owned a house, I would totally put it on my wall and stare at it all day long to kill time.
 
 
02 March 2008 @ 06:45 pm
My ideal life...finish high school successfully, getting B’s and A’s (no C’s or lower aloud). Then I would go to some university or nursing school for four years. Right after I graduate a bachelors degree in science, I would be offered many jobs since nurses are needed. A well paying company would hire me as a registered nurse. I would request to go to another country and work overseas. I would chose to go to Japan for two years. Even though I would be working in Japan, I would be with the American company and get paid in American wages. When I get to Japan I would quickly learn Japanese and be trilingual, which would help my career. I would live in an apartment with a colleague or friend because I don’t like to be by myself. The person i live with will have to be someone I like and enjoy being with. Someone who will laugh at the same things I find funny, someone who I can relate to. I would work in the after noon so I can sleep in late. Before work I would take long walks and possibly eat some sushi. Work wouldn’t be so hard because I would be cheerful and happy, and enjoy work which would make it a lot easier. My routine is get up at 11 am, go take a half hour walk, eat some breakfast, go to work, come home and relax. There would be nobody there to nag me or tell me to do stuff. My roommate would be hanging out with me, we would be going out and having fun. I would be getting paid good money . I would get 3 vacations a year and I would go to China and the Bay to visit family. I would have a lot of new friends in japan but after 2 years passed, I would have to sadly go back home. when I go back home, I would live in San Francisco in an apartment. A hospital would be near my house so I wouldn’t have to go far. I would get up at 11, take my walk, eat something, and go to work, and when I get home I would hang out and relax. On Saturdays, I would clean my entire apartment. And on sundays, I would be with friends and family. My life wouldn’t be stressful because I would be enjoying it. Then when I’m 25 I will marry some guy and live in either China, Japan or Korea. We would live in asia but come over the the Bay to visit friends and family. The guy I marry will have a good job like a doctor or lawyer, but he will have to work part time (if that’s even possible) so he can spend time with me. When I’m 27-30(hopefully that’s not too old) or so maybe I will have a kid. My kid won’t be annoying like everyone else’s, he/she will not be spoiled. If she becomes spoiled then I will get another kid and make them share stuff. This is how my life would be after I graduate college. Then after I have lived in the Bay for 5 years, I will go overseas to Korea and work there as a nurse. My family will happily tag along with me. And after 2 years in Korea, I will go work in China. My family will still tag along. After two years in China, I will decide where I want to work and live for good. After all these years, I will be fluent in Japanese and Korean, I don’t need to learn Chinese since I already know it. And after working and living in Korea, I will find a good home, a house (preferred) and send my kids to a public school. My kids will do homework right when they come home, they will study hard and become smart asians and go to a good college and start to build their lives. No matter where I live, or where I work, I would be a person who loves you eat (as always), sleep, walk in late morning time, hang out with friends and see the brighter side of life.
 
 
19 February 2008 @ 11:52 pm
In elementary, my mom did most of the shopping for me. I couldn’t care less about clothes, all i ever wanted to do was play and have fun. i actually disliked shopping. it was so much work, she would pick out all these things and ask for my opinion. even when i said i didn’t like it, she would say it was cute and buy it for me any ways. then she would make me try it on, and convince me i looked good in it. at that point in my life, i wold probably go shopping once a year and only buy a few things. most of the time, my mother would just go out and buy me stuff without my knowing and make me wear it. so shopping wasn’t fun when i was young. year after year, i would be dragged into macy’s and jc penny.
during fifth or fourth grade, i was really into blonde/orange/ any color besides black hair color. i think all asians want that hair color. then in 7th grade, i really wanted green or blue colored hair. not full blown of course, but i wanted a streak or two. everyone had it and it looked so cool. but i never ended up having it. and in 8th grade, i was content with my my natural dark brown/black hair color. i think i just had to get the whole wanting non black hair color out of my system before realizing natural is the way to go for me. except now i really want brown hair, my hair is only brown in the sun, but i’m probably going to regret it later so i won’t even bother.
So, back to fashion. in mid 8th grade, my sister started wearing better looking clothes than she usually wore. i think she was the main influence that made me like fashion. i didn’t really know about fashion, or any clothing stores, but my sister started going to abercrombie and fitch so i went too. i wonder how she knew about it. the more time passed, the more i loved shopping. by the end of eighth grade, i had good clothes, well atlas way better than what it was before. at that time, my hair changed too. i had gotten bangs, which was way better than what my hair looked like before (which was not much).
even today, i continue to shop constantly. just last year, i got my hair chemically straightened and my hair looks different from before, straightening your hair just makes your hair look thinner for people who already have straight hair. i would say that as i got older, i became more aware of what i looked like and started wanting to shop and look better.
 
 
09 February 2008 @ 03:35 pm
1.  Do you believe in karma?
YES.  i think there is there two different types.  one, is the things you do in your life right now determines whether you have a good life in your next life, and i guess the other one is stuff that happens to you presently.  i think both is true. whenever i have a bad day, i just blame it on karma. i guess it makes me feel better thinking that my bad days aren’t just for no reason.

2.  What one current event in any aspect of world news do you think is being most neglected or underrepresented? i think the world needs to pay more attention to animal care. there are lots of places where homeless cats and dogs other animals walk around hoping for food, shelter. there are animals like monkeys who are caged, not fed, to be used as experiments. i feel sorry for other animals who are hungry and die.

3.  If you could have any one superpower, what would it be and why?
well, i think i would go with being able to go anywhere you want in just a flash. like if i wanted to go to McDonnell's i cold just tell my mind to go there and i would appear there in half a second. then i would never have to be late for anything or have to pay for transportation. and if i was ever in danger, i could just leave. and i wouldn’t need a car, or a bike. and i could travel to anywhere i wanted.
4.  If you could invite any 5 famous people or characters to your birthday party, who would you pick? Lee hyori, sung yuri, that one guy in princess hours (the second prince), liu yi fei and yan ya lun. i would pick them because i like them a lot, but i wouldn’t really want them to be at my birthday because then no one would care it was my bday which would be no fun. and i wouldn’t wan them all at once because i would want to get to know them one by one, 5 famous people n one room would be overwhelming.

5.  If you could live in any film or book, what would you select? Would you want to be one of the characters, or would you want to be you (introduced as a new character)? i would want to live in the drama called goong. she gets to be a princess and have two princes fall in love with her. i would want to be her, the ordinary girl who turns into a princess because then life would be easier and i would be considered royal.

6.  Who of your friends would make the best president? I can't wait to know why. i have no idea, but i guess kunchok, because she is the responsible type that is smart and knows what she’s doing. the other one would probably be  carolina because she also is smart and responsible and sort of dominant.

7.  I used to always trip out that my strawberry Chapstick tasted so strongly like strawberries (and why was I eating so much Chapstick?). Then I realized that it wasn't the taste that was strong; it was the smell. They say that smell is the strongest scent. What is your favorite smell? USE CONNOTATIONS, FIGURATIVE LANGUAGE, OR ANALOGY in your (butter) saucey answer.

8.  If you could invent a new class for AHS to teach, what would it be?
a class that would teach you develop super powers. first you would chose what powers you wanted, then you would get a handbook on how to develop this power. everyone would want this class and everyone would do their homework and actually study for this class. i chose this class because i want super powers. but i would only limit this class to albanians because then powers wouldn’t be so special if everyone had them.

9.  Identify any symbol from any film ever (pick your favorite if you can think of many from which to choose). Identify what it means and why you picked it. in harry potter, when he put his sock in that book that belonged to the bad dude. and the bad dude gave the book with he sock in it not knowing it was there to the servant thing and the servant opened the book and he was free because if the owner gave the servant a piece of clothing then the servant would be free.
10. Will humankind still exist in 300 years?
yes. humans ill probably live for another million years, then we would all die because humans can’t adapt well. the world would still exist but we probably wouldn’t be here. the only species that can live until the world ends is probably the cockroach because they adapt quickly and we simply just don’t.
11. What is the most embarrassing song to ever grace your IPOD? Why was it there, may I ask? ummmmm....i don’t know i haven’t had any embarrassing songs on it. if it was embarrassing it wouldn’t be on it.

12. Corey Chin's brilliant question (and it's got me curious): How much would you charge to clean Mr. Ross' microwave? probably 50 dollars. who wants to clean mr. ross’ microwave? its a annoying job that is a waste of time. but 50 dollars would  be nice.

13. Did you support your answers?what do you mean??i guess so yes.
 
 
03 February 2008 @ 09:42 pm
I can't believe Mr. Ross is making me do this when I could be sleeping. Except this blog seems fun because you don’t really need to think, I  mean you do need to think but its not hard thinking. Sooooo ......I really want to sleep right now. Except I hate naps because every time I take a nap...I have to wake up and when I wake up from naps I feel EVEN more tired and a little “off ” and I get head aches. I try not to take naps unless I accidentally fall asleep doing my homework in my bed. Doing homework in your bed doesn’t really work out because you’re in a very cozy setting and there’s pillows and blankets. Especially doing math homework. Today I did so much homework. I did like 4 hours of homework, at least, and its like 9 17 and I started writing at like 9 14 so I still have a lot of time left to write stuff. But anyway I’m really happy because I went to my friends house yesterday and I haven’t really talked to her in a really long time. I see her everyday but we don’t talk, we just sort of like be there without having any interaction. so I missed her and called her up and ate dinner at her house. Her family is so awesome, and they make some really good food. Food at other peoples houses are so much better, just more fun I guess. but I’m really stressed because I was absent on friday and there’s a short story thingy due on Wed and that means I only have monday and tuesday to do it but because I was absent I don’t have instructions. and I don’t like writing, it’s such a long process. And on Monday I have to do other homework too, I have to do chemistry and geometry homework. I have a geometry quiz coming up in the beginning of the week and a chemistry lab to write up. AND I have the short story. I hate it when teachers give you homework but you don’t know what to do. When there is a lot of homework that is time consuming but not that hard and I know what I’m doing then I get lazy because I know I can do it but I just don’t want to. But when I have really hard homework to do when I don’t know what I’m doing then I start on it right away because I  know that the more I don’t know what I’m doing the more time it’s going to take up so I try to do what I can and make the best of it. ok so its 9 23 and right now I’m calculating 914 plus 12 is 9 26 which means there's three minutes left. Wow, seriously? Damn, that 12 minutes went by fast... I guess when you’re having fun you loose track of time. When I really want to get out of a class and count how many minutes went by, it goes really slowly but when I like what I’m doing , time fly's. Ok, so I have one minute left. I hope I didn’t write too little, because I’ve been writing for a straight 11 minutes now but it only appears that I’ve writing  one whole page. maybe its my program, I use apple works because I have an apple computer. It really sucks though, it looks cool though, but the internet is slow. Ok now its 9 26, im done..yay!
 
 
21 January 2008 @ 05:12 pm

Mix Tape

Track 1: Sean Kingston, Beautiful Girls.
In the beginning of the song, it starts out with “You're way too beautiful girl. That's why it'll never work”.  This reminds of Brigid O’Shaughnessy. She is beautiful, but it is the most beautiful girls that are the most vulgar in the most discreet ways. She has an affair with Spade, and because of this affair, Spade helps her, which is exactly her plan. This line reminds of how Brigid uses her beauty to get what she wants. Her affair with Spade automatically means that Spade has to help her, because of their relationship. She has a connection, a one man army. Further more in the song it goes “You’ll have me suicidal, suicidal. When you say it's over. Damn all these beautiful girls. They only wanna do your dirt”. This reminds me of when Spade was talking to Brigid about how he won’t be her fall back guy. Brigid uses Spade to protect her and to “find” the falcon, and then when she doesn’t need to be protected she tries to use her beauty to trick Spade into being the fall back guy, to get rid of Spade. She tries to act innocent and have Spade fall for her naïve innocence. If Spade fell for it, then he would have to go to jail for all the murders that have happened, which basically, is suicidal. Near the end the song it goes, “You’re tellin' me lies”. This connects to when Brigid told all those lies to Spade. She told him about the whole thing with her sister running away with Thursby and how she doesn’t know who killed Thursby, when she was the one who did it! And she doesn’t even have a sister! She also lied about not knowing much about the falcon and where it is. Brigid uses her beauty and her pretend innocence to trick Spade. Most people fall for it, but not Spade, he is way smarter than that.

Track 2: E-40, Why They Don't Fuck With Us.
The first verse is like this: “Don't fuck with us, don't fuck with us”. This reminded me of Spades attitude towards people he doesn’t like or trust. Especially to the police.  He is rude and makes insulting jokes to the police, and also to Gutman, and to Cairo. Spade gets irritated very easily and uses his annoying and insulting jokes to show his anger. Spade doesn’t like it when people play mind games on him or when people are vague, he likes things to be clear and simple and quick. His rudeness is his ways of saying don’t fuck with me. In the Beginning of the song it goes, “Money hungry hustlers trying to make ends meet”. This reminds of me how Cairo, Gutman, Spade and Brigid go through a lot of trouble to get money, to do their part and tries to get as much money as they can. All different kinds of people from different groups getting together with the same goals. Everyone has a goal and everyone would do anything to achieve their goal. In the middle of the song E-40 says: “Stingy young brothers when we walk we squeak”. This connects to Spade because when he and Cairo and Gutman make deals, they get stingy. Because they don’t want to lose anything that they don’t have to, they are very cautions on what they say and do and so they make deals that are stingy in a way. Since the falcon is worth millions and millions, 10 thousands seems like very little to spade, which makes Gutman’s people seem stingy.

Track 3: E-40, Life Styles.
The very first line is “Desperado always drinkin' out the bottle”. This reminded me of how Spade always drank alcohol and went to bars like a typical detective would. He would do this to clear his mind. “See what it is I want the po-pos to think that” This to me sounded like Spade not caring about what the DA and the police department thought of what spade was doing. If Spade was a thug, I think that is what he would be saying to the police. Spade doesn’t care about his actions; he doesn’t think about outcomes, he just does. “But check for traps and clues nobodys playin' by the rules anymore” This to me seemed like something everyone in the book was feeling. Brigid ran away with the falcon because she didn’t think Gutman and Cairo would treat her fairly, Spade doesn’t trust Brigid and goes through her house, Cairo and Gutman don’t trust Spade, and they are constantly playing mind games on him. Especially Spade, he doesn’t trust ANYONE, except for Effie Perrine. “My hood is corrupted and full of infidel one poverty. Not too much faithfulness mostly all betrayal” If Spade lived in a hood, and then it would be full of people he wouldn’t trust and who are not loyal to one another. No one follows the rules and more and a lot of people cheat, which sounds like Spades life. Spade’s life is full of people he doesn't trust, which is why Spade doesn’t trust anyone.

Track 4: E-40, Go Hard or Go Home.
During the song E-40 goes, “I'm whiskeyed, I'm hit, I ain't go no patience”. This reminds me of how Spade has no patience. Spade just wants things to be quick and over. He wants business to be fast and over with so he doesn’t have to deal with it later or think about it later. Spade doesn’t have patience because he hates waiting for things to happen; he wants action, not talk. He believes what he sees right now, and not what promises people make or say. Further more in the song, it goes, “Don't be fucking with my goon”. This sounded like Spade saying don’t fuck with me because I’m tough and brave and strong and I can do what ever I want to you. Spade is a tough guy who lives in reality, he see’s what’s real and what’s fake. Because of his toughness and his connections, you probably wouldn’t want to f*** with him. He has his own army, which is himself only. That’s all he needs. He and himself. The main theme of this song is “Go hard or go home”. This seemed like a motto Spade would say. You either get tough and accept everything that goes on, or you go home! A lot of unfortunate events happen to spade, he comes across some vulgar people who follow, search and spy on him, and he get’s blamed for murders by the police, and is constantly annoyed by his ex-partners wife who he had an affair with. Spade deals with it as if comes. But if he couldn’t handle it, then he would have to just go home and forget all the stuff that happened.

Track 5: E-40, Sick Wid It II.
In the first stanza it goes, “There's a lot of shit that need to be said big cousin (Talk to me, I'll talk back)”. This reminded me of how everyone made up a story and each person says something different, adds on to the story or changes it. The stories that Spade hears do not match up nor do they make sense. So when they all gather around in one room, it’s like Spade saying there’s so much going on, we need to tell the truth and get everyone out on the table, get it off your chest and clarify everything. Then it goes “Got all the whole hood in this motherfucker (the whole soil)”. This connects to Spade because they got a lot of people into the mess. All because of a falcon, 4 people died and 3 people are going to jail. People got involved in this along the way. Then it goes, “Nigga don't help me, my nigga help the mountain lion!” This reminded me of how Spade got the falcon and he had to save Brigid. He already got the big thing that everyone was after and it seemed like he didn’t want to save Brigid since he already got the falcon. This line means don’t save one when you can sacrifice that one for many. Since Spade already got the statue, he doesn’t need Brigid.






 
 
16 December 2007 @ 08:34 pm
food  
    Ah, food, my favorite thing in life. Who doesn’t like food? I mean honestly, who doesn’t? I can’t imagine. A great thing about food is having options; there are so many different kinds! There are millions of different ways to cooking it and eating it.
    So here‘s what happened. I’m going to school, 6-7 long hours of school, with out food. I know, seems impossible, at least, for me. So here I am, sitting in my classroom, bored and hungry and sleepy, what could be worse? The worst part of school is being hungry and not having food. It’s torture. I’m extremely looking forward to going home have a nice big bowl of ramen. Sounds delicious. The more I think about it, the more I want some right now! So anyways, after school, I start walking home. Going as fast as I can, looking foolish walking so awkwardly, but not caring about anything but the bowl of ramen I’m about to eat. When I was about a block away from my house; I started running to my house as fast as I can. Then, getting to my house, I hurried into my house and put that tea kettle on. I took out my Kim chi flavored ramen and smelled the deliciously spicy powder sauce that came with ramen. It smelled like Kim chi heaven, unbelievably wonderfully, I would say, almost the best smell. Then, pouring the hot water in, the steaming hot noodles alerted my senses of taste and smell. Eager to eat it, I put my nose near it and just sniffed it for at least a minute. Then it was ready, the moment I’ve waited all this time, the moment for the hot spicy ramen to go in my mouthwatering stomach. As I ate the ramen with abundant joy, I felt my stomach slowly filling up. Almost choking from eating too fast, I had to slow down and rest my self. The best part is not just the noodles, but being able to relax in a chair or couch, watching tv, and slowly slurping down the soup, the unbearably spicy soup. Although it was spicy, it is that very feeling that makes the ramen so good. Although it is so unhealthy for you, it is totally worth it. There are thing you can put in to make it healthier, like putting in an egg, or some yummy veggies.
    And the best part in the whole experience is, feeling full! Feeling full and sitting down with pure happiness. Sitting down, resting your full stomach thinking, thank god they invented ramen. I know that’s what I always think after eating it.
 
 
08 December 2007 @ 04:59 pm
1. If you could be a fly on anybody's wall, on whose wall would you perch? Why? What would you do with the information? I would be on criminal people’s wall so that I can hear their conversation and somehow tell the good guys about the bad guys.  I would hide in a place where the bad people can’t see me so I don’t get squashed, and I would listen intently. Then after I had the vital information, I would use something to spell things out. I could use ink and write information at some stranger’s house hoping for the person to take action; if that person doesn’t do anything about it then I spell it out for someone smarter.

2. What is your favorite piece of art? Describe what it looks like. Why do you like it so much? How does it make you feel? Does it tell a story? Have symbolism? I don’t have a favorite piece of art, but I like Asian drawings of flowers and nature. I really like it because it looks calming and it makes me happy. It flows through my mind. There is something about Chinese paintings that is just so beautiful. Their strokes are really amazing. They use black ink which makes the painting even more beautiful because it is in black and white.

3. If you could choose your parents, how would they be? Describe how they look, act, and parent. What do they do (for work, hobbies, etc)? I would want my parents to be rich. But they wouldn’t want a big house, a medium house would be fine too, but it would have to be a modern and bright looking house. We would live across from my school so I wouldn’t have to walk so far. They would be so rich that they won’t need jobs. They would let me do whatever I wanted to do- only if I was safe of course. They would hire me tutors to prep me for college and I would be smarter. Since they don’t have jobs, they would go golfing, walking in parks, bowling, do whatever old people like to do and they would live happily ever after. They would give me my own room, giving me an allowance of about 500 dollars a month. We would go on vacation all the time going to Japan, China, Italy and wherever we wanted to go. They wouldn’t be so uptight and they would just relax and be happy. Their motto would be, don’t worry, and be happy!

4. If you could live in any decade, which one would it be and why? ELABORATE. What opportunities would you take advantage of in said decade? I would live in the ancient times in China when they still had Kings and Princesses. The period when people wore gowns, long silky ones. I would choose to be a princess, the oldest princess since back then there would be many princesses. I would have a different gown everyday. I would have everything I wanted and marry some handsome prince there. Although the guys in that period weren’t so pretty…But I chose this time period because the gowns are so beautiful and being a princess sounds kind of cool.  I would take the advantage to just relax in that life time, I wouldn’t have to worry about anything, and I could have an education because most women didn’t have at that time. But I could have an education because of my status just incase my father died and I had to take over. Otherwise I would just go to school, there wouldn’t be any tests or homework and I would live a free life. I would eat all the food I wanted and just basically do what ever I wanted to.

5. If you could/had to be any Disney character, who would it be and why? I would Snow White, because she worked hard in her life and she got what she deserved. She never expected anything out of the ordinary, like say a handsome prince and a kingdom. She did what she was told and worked hard for most of her life; she was bossed around and constantly bullied. She is kind hearted, innocent and forgives people. She got the ending she deserved; kind hearted people have happy endings.

6. There is a difference between the moral man and the criminal in that the moral man has a legitimate reason to steal. Support or refute this idea (that a person's objectively bad deeds can be justified by the subjectivity of their life). I disagree with this because a criminal who steals is a criminal but if a moral man steals then that makes the moral man a criminal. What is then the difference between the moral man and the criminal man? They have one thing in common and that is that they are both stealing. Doesn’t matter why you steal, as long as you do, you are a criminal no matter who you are or use to be
 
 
01 December 2007 @ 06:48 pm
film  
This is going to be a love story with a typical happy ending.

Characters:  
Katrina- A bossy girl who is the CEO of a fashion company, she is very picky about everything, doesn’t hesitate to fire any employee. She hopes to be romanced but all the guys she went on blind dates were scarred of her and didn’t suit her. She is half Japanese and half Chinese, speaking a little bit of both. She lives in a mansion with lots of servants and maids and chefs. She is extremely rich; she has her own shopping line and is extremely beautiful. She is famous for her beauty. She currently lives in China.

Xiao Zhu- An unemployed man who speaks Chinese lives in a small cozy apartment. He is handsome and an expert in love. He is a little below average financially. He is a very good cook; he is trying to find a job as a chef. He lives in China as well.

    It starts out with Katrina running late, she is never late, and instead of her chauffeur driving her, she drove herself. The street in was very busy and she turns the corner and see’s a person on a bike, at first she was focusing on going to work. The man suddenly fainted and fell on her car. She is extremely angry at him for dirtying her car. She takes him to the hospital and wanted to leave right away but the doctors said she has to stay until a family member comes. Xiao Zhu recovered very quickly and got up from his bed in the hospital to see what was going on. Katrina, very mad at Xiao Zhu for making a dent in her car demands him to pay for the damages. He can’t pay for it because he is unemployed, living with his parents.  He feels guilty for the car damage and wants to find an alternative for paying her. He suggests being her “maid” for a couple of months to repay his debt. Katrina at first laughed at his suggestion, but seeing how she fired all her other maids (she is very picky), she willingly hires him. They make a contract for him for work for 3 months. He cooks and cleans.
    She finally goes on a date and is very excited. Xiao Zhu, knowing a lot about relationships, gives her tips about what to say or do. It goes horribly wrong and she blames him for his tips. She come home and starts throwing stuff at him, Xiao Zhu is very patient and understands her frustration. He doesn’t mind Katrina taking her anger on him. After all this drama, she shuts her door closed and stays in her room for the rest of the night. In the morning, Katrina feels guilty for being so mad at Xiao Zhu when it wasn’t even his fault. She starts by making breakfast, even though she is the worst cook ever. She then brings the breakfast to his bedroom (he lives there since he has no where to live, he’s a 24 hour maid). She opens the door and he isn’t there. Katrina being very sad, starts crying. But then he comes to his bedroom door, turns out he was just in the bathroom. Katrina was so happy to see him; she immediately hugs him and realizes she likes him a lot. He liked her the moment he saw her but didn’t have the courage to tell her. Katrina is also afraid to tell him and really wants to tell him but doesn’t know how.
    They eat breakfast together and are happy that everything is back to normal. Xiao Zhu gives her a surprise and blind folds her taking her to the beach for a lovely picnic. At first she isn’t so sure about it, she doesn’t like anything dirty. But then Xiao Zhu got her out of her shell. He started throwing sand at her and getting her mad but then they laughed at the whole thing. They had a great time, they walked on the beach with the sun setting and right when they were going to kiss, and her cell phone rang. It was her company, the company was in danger and she needed to be there.                                                  
    She was disappointed but she has her duties. She drops him off and goes to work. She comes home the next morning exhausted. Xiao Zhu is napping on the couch and she got up from her nap in her room to get something, she accidentally trips and falls on the couch, falling on him. They accidentally kissed. Feeling embarrassed, they immediately departed and made excuses to leave the house. They don’t talk for the rest of the night. Then Xiao Zhu tells her to close the door as he talks. He confesses his love for her. She feels like she has butterflies in her stomach. She opens the door and they hug. Xiao Zhu says,” Let’s make our contract for eternity.” She agreed and they got married and had 2 daughters. Xiao Zhu got a job as a chef and Katrina’s fashion business is very good and they both make a fortune.


 
 
18 November 2007 @ 09:53 pm
Invention

    If I could invent anything in the world, I wouldn’t even know where to start. There are so many things that could help the world. We have big issues like diseases, bad health plans, famine, lack of education and I can go on all night long but I won’t. This just shows what a mess earth is. If I knew how to make things, I would make a pill that cures you from all disease, like a all purpose cleaner, but for all diseases. And 1 pill would give you resistance for life and I would make it cheap for that all the people who are making less than 5 dollars an hour would just have to pay a couple of bucks. And I would make it so that if you took a lot, nothing would happen, so people don’t wouldn’t try to get high off it and that it wouldn’t kill you if you took like 50. And I would make it so that 1 pill could not only last a life time but also last for every generation in your family. That would help the world tremendously. I think even human population would grow. If there was such a pill, then I would buy millions of them and give it to families in Africa, then no mother would have to loose their child.  Well, actually, I wouldn’t have to buy them since I invented it. I think one flaw would be for people who have issues with swallowing pills. Some people can’t stand swallowing pills, well, I guess they’re just going to have to suck it up, or another alternative would be to cut the pill and put it in water.
    When you live in the city, you sort of forget what’s it’s like out of it. You sort of get caught up in society, but then you see something on TV advertising the need of money for orphans or for children in Africa who are in need of food, education and vaccinations, it all hits you like, damn, that’s hella sad. That’s what I thought when I saw the ad. Too bad I can’t invent such a pill. Then I would be rich, and the whole world would love me, and most importantly I would be saving lives. I think at some point, someone will make a pill for all illnesses, not serious diseases but maybe like it could cure malaria, fever, small pox, West Nile disease all at once. That would be so cool.

     If the pill didn’t work out, then I would invent a table cloth that never runs out of food. I would make the cloth transparent so that it would be hard so see so no one would want to steel it. It would pop out food when ever you were hungary and of course only your favorite food. The cloth would be small and easy to carry, it would be very light even though there would be an unlimited value of food. I think the one thing people would do is to use it to sell the food for profit. But I would make it so that it only comes out when you are hungary and that it won’t come out when you use it for personal gain. I think I would give it to all the poor people and make the rich buy it. The table cloth would also work for dog and cats, it could give you cat food or a dog bone. It would end all hunger for ever living things. In poor countries, there are lots of children and adults and even animals that need nutritious food. One of the worlds biggest problems is lack of food. If could save millions and millions of lives. If anyone ever invented any of those, then that person would be a hero.  A hero and a genius. Damn, that would be so amazing. But it’s unrealistic.
 
 
11 November 2007 @ 04:47 pm
1. What is your favorite book?
    I don’t have one. But I think the last book I read was about this girl who was new to the town and she likes this guy but she always makes her self look like an idiot. At the end he likes her too and it’s very lovey-dovey. I like those kinds of books, but I can never find any good ones.
2. If you could/had to live in any country besides the United States, where would it be?
    I would live in either Japan or Korea. Japan is so cool, they are so high tech. It’s funny when Japanese people bow up and down even when they are on the phone, it’s like they are bowing to the wall because you bow with excitement when see people you meet or know and I guess it’s a habit so they do it on the phone even when no one is there. It’s actually really cute. Japanese sounds so cool too; they speak with this special tone. Korea sounds cool too; they have the MOST beautiful language that was ever made! When I first herd it I didn’t think much of it but it’s so beautiful. All languages have different tones to it. And places in Asia have the coolest phones, here we have phones have slide both ways but in Asia, they have phones that can go 360!
3. Who is your favorite superhero?
     My favorite is Piper from Charmed. She has the power to freeze any area she’s in and she can also blow things up with her hands. I also like Page’s power, she can orb and a move thing with her mind, Phoebe’s power is more passive, she gets premonitions.  Overall, Charmed is he BEST show, it’s like action and drama and comedy at the same time. They are hero’s that fight demons and warlocks.
4. If you could change any one law, what would it be?
 I would change the law that says abortion is illegal. I think everyone in the whole world should have the right to get an abortion. People say its murder and it’s very controversial but it’s still YOUR choice. Sometimes women get pregnant without meaning to, by accident or maybe they were raped. Those are situations when they really can’t afford to have a baby or just not ready to have one, they should have the right to make their own decisions.
6. Is it better to be too hot or too cold?
    I’d rather be hot than cold. I hate being cold, it’s so uncomfortable, being cold is really depressing. When it’s cold, it’s windy and dark and that makes me sad. I like being warm so I don’t really mind being hot unless I had to walk a lot in the heat, then it would be annoying but I’d rather walk in the heat than in the cold.
7. Which is better: to get in a car accident that isn't your fault and lose a leg or to get into a car accident that is your fault and kills an old lady? I’d rather lose a leg, because you can always get a fake leg. Killing an old lady would haunt me forever, and you probably get charged with secondhand murder if you kill an old lady. I would feel incredibly guilty killing an old lady. Old ladies don’t have much time left to live; I would want them to live in peace. Although an old lady shouldn’t be driving anyway!
8. Do you believe that pain and suffering is a necessary part of life?
     Of course, you can’t live without pain; pain is a part of life, just like happiness is. To live life, you have to experience the goods and the bad; it just comes with the whole package. Sometimes you have to go through pain to find happiness. Everyone experiences pain, even if you have the perfect life; you still suffer at some point in your life.
9. Is animal testing acceptable?
     No, why should other animals suffer for something we want? We shouldn’t have to use other innocents as our experiments. If you want to test your product, then use your self, since it’s your product.
10. Do you believe that ghosts exist?
     Yes! Spooky things happen to people all the time. When my mom was little, she saw this ghost like lady who was transparent. She closed her eyes tightly and opened them again and the ghostly figure was gone. Once I went into my room and closed the door, then when I came out the door was locked. Either I locked it and forgot, or it was a ghost. That happened to me twice, so I think it’s supernatural.
11. Do you believe that you can never have too much of a good thing?
     Yes. Nothing is always the way you plan it. When you plan things, it sounds good and you get excited about it (whatever it is) but then it never turns out the way you want it to. Or like if your about to go somewhere or do something, it’s never the way you thought it would be. Whenever good things happened to you, something bad has to happen also. It’s like a balance.
12. Do you believe that school is the best way to make a person smarter?
     No, I think experience makes a person smart. I think school can help make a person smart, but I think it mostly comes out of experience. Schooling education can get you ready, it gives you a warning of what the world is like, but experiencing tells you what its like. Education tells you how to do something, I guess that’s a big part of making you smart, but to actually do the thing you learn makes you smarter because then you know how to do what your doing better by experience.
13. Do you believe that Free Market Capitalism is fair? If not, what would you suggest?
    Yes, because it includes everyone and that is fair.  Free market capitalism is when everyone can get together and invest. If fair because then no one is excluded.
14. Do you believe that war can be justified?
    No. War is just people killing people. They would probably communicate and work things out better over a simple conversation. They would save lots of money and energy too. I think leaders would have better relationships with other leaders if they ended all wars. Then no one would hold grudges against one another.
15. If you could switch your gender, but it had to be permanent, would you?
     No, being a girl is fun. There are so much good things about being a girl, and so many things that suck. Like having a baby is going to suck so much. It’s going to hurt so much, women scream their heads off and you have to be in labor for 24 hours almost, imagine 24 hours of pain. Even monthly cramps are painful to me; I really can’t imagine having a baby come out of you. But it’s fun to pamper and groom your self. Things like shopping makes up for all the pain we go through.
16. Do you think you are anyone's favorite person in the world?
    I’d have to ask them.
 
 
Current Location: on a chair
Current Mood: aggravated
 
 
04 November 2007 @ 04:42 pm

        I would say that up until 6th grade, I haven’t been very sporty, so to speak. I haven’t really paid attention to sports. But then in 6th grade, it all changed. I went to Longfellow Middle school for one year. At first, I didn’t really notice anything special about sports; I didn’t really care for it. But then I saw more and more people playing soccer, it dawned on me that it was a popular sport and that maybe; just maybe it would be fun to try it out. Of course not for the team, I would never be good enough, even now.


        In P.E., we played soccer and it was like nah it’s not that fun. But then I played in my first game (in p.e of course) and it was like the world suddenly stopped spinning and it felt like I was on top of everything. Usually running seems like a dreadful thing to do, but in soccer I didn’t think of the running as running. The running was like a run that makes you feel so free and out there and STRONG. It is a feeling that is indescribable.  Although I didn’t know anything about soccer or any of the rules and basically looked like a complete idiot trying to kick the ball, I did it for the fun. Although no one would pass me the ball, I would get it once a while. When you get the ball for the first time, you feel like a pro and you feel as if everyone is depending on you, when really everyone is annoyed that some Asian girl who doesn’t know how to play soccer is hogging the ball.


        Soccer is a sport that brings everyone together. You don’t have to be good at it to have fun; you don’t really have to be good at any sport to have fun. In soccer, you use team work and communication, like many other sports have. In soccer you use team work, for example, you have to pass the ball to someone else and that alone is like co functioning with one another. There’s always room to improve and get better at, so you can’t get bored with it. You make a lot of friends with it. You can talk about soccer related things with anyone!

   
    Soccer is really fun to watch. Being watched can be stressful because you want to do well and you don’t want to look like a complete fool. But then the pressure might make you mess up; I don’t work well under pressure. When you are the audience, you feel extreme excitement because in your mind, you’re thinking, oh my god, oh my god make it make it! And when the player makes it, you stand up and cheer and when the player doesn’t make it, a little piece of your heart tragically dies. At the end, everyone cheers, even the losers because they are good sports.
   
    A lot of people are not coordinated and have no sense or capability to kick a soccer ball. They look awkward when trying to play the game but still have lots of fun with it. For example, my mom. She looks like something is wrong with her when she tries to kick the ball truth being that she is perfectly functional. She knows she looks ridiculous but she still plays because it is so much fun.
   

 
 
04 November 2007 @ 04:12 pm
    If I could choose what animal to be like, I would definitely NOT be a human. Humans have too much going on. I would want to be a bird, they are so free and THEY GET TO FLY! How fly would that be? Get it? Fly and fly?? Get it? Anyways, they get to fly and they sing. The two things I will never be able to do.

    I think being a cat would fit my personality better. The only thing that cats aren't like me is when they live only in the moment, they don’t think about the past (unless something terribly unforgettable happened) and they don’t think about the future. This is totally unlike me. Imagine how life would feel. Not worrying about grades in the future. That would be impossible for humans to not think about future. Humans have to think about the future, I enjoy thinking about the future unless something bad was going to happen. Cats love to sleep all day long and snuggle up. They are incredibly lazy; all they do is sleep and eat all day long. This is my dream. Ah…eating and sleeping, it’s like a little piece of heaven.
    I’m a person who enjoys work if it’s easy. If there was a lot of work to be done but it was easy, then I wouldn’t mind it. I like to chill at my house, eat something, and watch some TV and getting into bed is like what I would want my life to be like. But another part of me loves to go out. Going to a friend’s house and chilling there is always a fun option. I hate being by my self, especially in the dark. I LOVE to eat, I repeat, I LOVE to eat.  So I think in a way, I’m like a bird and a cat, even though they are opposites, cats being hermits and lazy, birds being out and everywhere.

    Taking the “what is your animal personality?” test was not helpful at all. First of all, all my answers to the questions weren’t on there so it was difficult to choose. The site said that my animal was a Badger. What the hell is a Badger?? I’m looking at a picture of a Badger and they look pretty weird. They look like skunks.  And it said I was grumpy and hard working. I agree with the hard working part, but I most certainly am not GRUMPY. Gosh. Yes, JR, I think you should go and examine the test.
 
 
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Current Mood: hungry
 
 
25 October 2007 @ 07:50 pm
    For me, I never really had a childhood monster. I would have (and still do) nightmares about various creatures and monsters. I really loved scary movies when I was little. My mother forabde me while my dad encouraged it. The thing about scary movies is that when you are not watching any, it sounds really fun. Then you hit play and the terror begins. At least that’s how it is with me.  I use to watch a lot of movies about vampires. Although the thought of having your blood sucked and then having the possible chance of turning into one of them was terrifying to a little kid, I certainly enjoyed it.
    I remember once I was watching a really tense scary movie and I had to pee so I was walking towards my bathroom and my mom suddenly appeared, it sacred me to death! It was so sudden and I was already scarred from the movie. In my scary dreams, I would dream about vampires chasing me to suck my blood, and the place where I was sort of like a maze and it was really scary. Imagine someone chasing you wanting to suck your blood, not pleasant eh?
    Other times, my parents would talk about black widows and how if they bite you, you would be close to dying. I don’t remember how this conversation struck at dinner time but afterwards I dreamed about it. It’s sort of interesting how in dreams, you dream about what is going on in the unconscious mind. When my parents talked about black widows, I was not scared at all or worried about it but I guess deep in my mind I was so I had a nightmare about it. The nightmare was that the spider was chasing me. It’s funny how everything chases me.
    Does everyone have one particular monster they were always afraid of? For me, I get scared at current things in my life. Sometimes when I wake up really early when its pitch black, and I will imagine person there. Really it’s a coat hanger with a hat and jacket. Because I sort of know that it’s just a hanger, I watch it closely and imagine it move a little. It was really intense, so then I would just go back to bed hoping it would go away.


 
 
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Current Music: crank that-solider boy or something
 
 
 
 

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